I’m Not a Quitter!

I was sitting having a coffee in a small café in the town near us. I looked over to their poster board filled with numerous cards and advertisements and my eye was caught by a photo of Terry Fox. He was a young Canadian who lost a leg to cancer and set the goal of crossing Canada, on his one leg, to raise cancer awareness and raise funds for research. He did not make it the whole way as the cancer spread and he died on June 28th 1981. He was 22 years old. Now every year people take part in the Terry Fox Run which has raised hundreds of millions of dollars for Cancer Research.

The Marathon of Hope

The photo in the café was to advertise this year’s Terry Fox run. There was a picture of this extraordinary young man in the center and above the words: “I’m not a Quitter”. Those words struck a chord with me. I am not a quitter either. But the day before I had received some tough news.

I had gone to see the orthopedic surgeon who had replaced both my hips years ago. I have great respect for this doctor and he knows me and understands how important horses and riding are to me. Twenty years ago he replaced my right hip. I had asked him if I would be able to ride after the hip was replaced. “Of course” he replied. “But it is forbidden to fall off. ” Ten years ago he replaced my left hip. So we have known each other for many years.

He looked at the x-ray of my hips and told me that the small fracture I had was still healing and that was not a problem. But what was a worry was the right hip socket. It was showing serious wear and tear and looked unstable. He asked how it felt and I told him it had been giving me problems for months. Last winter it had affected my ability to ride. He told me it would need surgery to replace the socket liner and the ball. He said he could see that the grains of plastic that were coming off the old socket liner were causing inflammation and what they call pseudo tumors which are like little cysts. He said he thought the hip was “unstable” and surgery was “urgently” needed. The problem is he is now in his 70s and no longer does surgery. So he told me he would write an email to another surgeon in the same hospital and refer me to him for the surgery. He wrote the email on his phone and sent it and then filled in the official paper work for the referral. He also told me that with the Covid backlog and a lack of staff wait times for surgeries were long . He had told the other surgeon that he felt my situation was urgent but he could not say when I would get to see this surgeon or get the surgery.

Not being able to plan my life is a tough one for me. But at least I now had an answer to why my hip had been bothering me for months and had affected my riding as well. I will get the surgery at some point . My hip will feel better and it will mean I can ride without pain or discomfort. And…I’m not a quitter so I will get through this. The plus is that the hip fracture has led to the xrays and now I know why the hip has been giving me problems.

For the time being I am not doing any serious riding work and no lessons. I do not want the hip to get worse and I don’t know how long the wait will be for surgery. But I can still take Biasini out to the forest trails. My husband and our little dog came with us this past week and here is a video. It was a cold morning so I have a blue quarter sheet on Biasini’s rump.

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  1. Gorgeous forest path, Best Wishes for the scheduled surgery.

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    1. anne leueen says:

      Thank you Michael.

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  2. Emma Cownie says:

    Poor Terry Fox. That’s a sad story and he was so young. That’s a real pain about your hip. Why dont they make replacement hips that work forever? Anyway, I always say that that discretion is the better part of valour. No one would ever call you a quitter. Enjoy riding Biasini.

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    1. anne leueen says:

      Now they make hips that do last almost forever. Mine was put in 20 years ago and the materials were different then.

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      1. Alli Farkas says:

        I was just going to make a similar comment when I saw this one!

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        1. anne leueen says:

          Yes. My hip was designed to last for about 15 years so it is past it’s best before date for sure !

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      2. Emma Cownie says:

        That’s worth knowing but annoying for you.

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  3. David says:

    This wasn’t the news I was expecting to read. But, at least you can understand what’s going on, and hope the wait isn’t too long so you can get it fixed and you’ll be out riding and taking lessons again. And, maybe win a Grand Prix along the way.

    We’re heading out again, this time to Sacramento for the International Welcome Week series. First week is Premier AA level (National 6*), second week is the big one, CSI4*-W.

    D-E-T know you have the heart of a champion. They know you won’t quit.

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    1. anne leueen says:

      Please tell D-E-T that I very much appreciate their confidence in me. I will not quit. I will press on! Thanks David.

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  4. Linda Book says:

    You are a true rider and a determined horsewoman. Get that surgery and get better. You have miles to go.

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    1. anne leueen says:

      Thank you!I appreciate this comment.

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  5. So glad you know now why your hip is giving you problems. Also glad that you can still do some quiet forest rides on Biasini, who looks after you too. Hug to you.

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    1. anne leueen says:

      Thank you and I appreciate that virtual hug!

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  6. J.W.S. says:

    Your lovely ride along the wooded path is sort of an allegory for moving through life with quiet determination.

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    1. anne leueen says:

      Thank you. I like that idea and I shall remember it.

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  7. Glad you are able to ride while you wait. That path looked so inviting!

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    1. anne leueen says:

      Thank you..it is a great pleasure to have the forest trails to ride on.

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  8. Tina Schell says:

    You most definitely are NOT a quitter Anne, in fact the farthest thing from it! I’d not heard of Fox before it’s an amazing story of courage and determination. Enjoy your quieter time with Biasini and here’s hoping the surgery happens soon and resolves quickly. Thinking of you.

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    1. anne leueen says:

      Thank you so much Tina!

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  9. Laura says:

    I’m glad during this delay to surgery that you can still go on gentle rides with Biasini. Waiting periods can be difficult or they can be a time to learn, develop strength and character depending on how we choose to use the time. I trust, since your definitely not a quitter, that you’ll become stronger and share some lovely hours with Biasini.

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    1. anne leueen says:

      Thank you and yes I will.

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  10. Neal Saye says:

    Oh Anne. I love the green, life-filled video. And I’m glad you are getting answers for the pain. May the incredibly successful surgery happen soon! Savannah positive energy flowing your way.

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    1. anne leueen says:

      Thank you for that Savannah energy. Neal. I appreciate it!

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  11. Pepper Tron says:

    Praying that you are able to to see the surgeon sooner than expected and that the healing is quick and without complications. 😊

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    1. anne leueen says:

      Thank you so much!💕

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  12. It never crossed my mind that you might be a quitter! So sorry to hear that additional surgery is required but maybe they have better tech and mat’ls now for the replacement
    Best wishes from Wisc., RPT

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    1. anne leueen says:

      Thank you Robert The materials they have now are much longer lasting. Thanks so much for your comment!

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  13. Lesley says:

    What an inspiring young man . . . and you are too, Anne. I hope you don’t have to wait too long till you get surgery. x

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    1. anne leueen says:

      Thank you Terry Fox was a true inspiration. I can clearly remember the day I heard he had died. I felt a personal loss even though I had never met him.

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      1. Lesley says:

        I can understand that, Anne. I felt the same when Captain Tom Moore died.

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        1. anne leueen says:

          I loved Capt. Moore. And I was sad when he died. He was an inspiration in more ways than one.

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          1. Lesley says:

            I loved him too, Anne . . . for the person he was and all the good he did – and he looked like my dad. 😀

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